I started my “reading through the Bible chronologically”
journey before I even realized I was doing it.
I had read Genesis, Job, and then I felt led to read Acts.
After Acts, I asked God “now what?”
And I found myself trying to pick “one part” of the Bible to
focus on.
Nothing stood out.
New Testament is smooth. I made a list of all the books I’d
read “recently” as in the last 2 or so months.
Genesis, Job, Acts, Romans, Ephesians, 1 & 2 Peter,
Philippians, Galatians, Colossians, James, Ruth.
Lord, where to?
I started looking into “Read the Bible in a year” plans, and
there were a whole bunch of them. They would have me hip hoppin’, hop-scotchin’
around, little bit of this, a little bit of that, some old, some new testament.
I got dizzy just looking at the reading plans and charts. I like multi-tasking,
but this was too cray cray.
Daddy, this is overwhelming!
So, I decided to read the Bible the same way I approach my favorite tv
shows.
I watch the pilot episode, and watch every single episode in
order, marathon style, that way I don’t miss a beat.
So on January 27th, I plunged into Exodus
(remember I’d just read Genesis and Job).
God started revealing to me things that applied to my current
struggles.
((this is a good time to grab your Bible, because I'm about to drop some references, son! Or daughter!))
In El Salvador, I was hesitant about always translating
sermons, not to mention preaching in Spanish.
God, this is your
message! What if I mess it up? What if I don’t know the words and they don’t
understand?
“Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to
say.” Ex 4:12
In Honduras, I read Leviticus.
God showed me how sin is costly and gross. Right when I was
struggling with obedience, God put me in a book that’s full of reminders of the
rewards of obedience.
Still in Honduras, I read Numbers.
In Numbers, I learned that God doesn’t like it when I
complain. God doesn’t like it when I question His plan for me, or long for my
alternative plans, which were obviously not as good!
I also learned that when God says “go,” He doesn’t want me
to hesitate. He doesn’t want me to chicken out.
He taught me through the “hesitation generation” in the desert. His
warriors listen to His voice and boldly follow His commands.
In Nicaragua, I read Deuteronomy.
God began my broken season by showing me I’m still in this
desert, being humbled. He is definitely purifying me. He is definitely refining
me. God wants to make my joy complete. He makes promises because He keeps
promises. He is a GREAT and AWESOME God, and He is among us.
I am a treasured possession of God, and I am to rejoice in
all the good things the Lord, my God, has given me. He has set before me blessings for obedience
and curses for disobedience.
God is restoring me. He’s restoring my fortunes. Not my
monetary fortunes, but my status as a chosen daughter of God. My treasures. All
that I had lost while I was disobedient. God is still healing me.
Still in Nicaragua, I read Joshua.
Ya know what I learned in Joshua? That God is so boss. “Not
one of all the Lord’s good promises to the house of Israel failed; every one
was fulfilled.” 21:45 Victory is mine if God is with me.
Still in Nicaragua, I read Judges, Ruth, and started 1
Samuel.
In Judges, I learned that riddles are usually a bad idea. I
had a blast in Judges. It is so random and violent, like a Quentin Tarantino
movie, except there were no f bombs.
In Ruth, I learned that faithfulness is rewarded. God uses
each one of us to answer prayers, and that I can be God’s provision to another
person. I also got a picture of what my ministry will look like after the Race
(but that wasn’t until I got to Cambodia… long story!).
In 1 Samuel, I learned that it’s okay for me to be a crazy
coconut, because David was. God sets up unlikely scenarios for His glory, and
to train me to trust Him.
In Thailand, I finished 1 Samuel, and began the ‘a little bit
of this, a little bit of that’ chronological scramble between Psalms, 1
Chronicles, and 2 Samuel.
In 2 Samuel, I learned that sometimes you do shoot the
messenger. I learned that it’s where the phrase “how the mighty have fallen!”
comes from! David wins a lot, duh, and he had a mess load of wives. In the
scramble with Psalms and 1 Chronicles, I learned that God delights in bravery.
He grants success. Mocking can have very serious consequences. 2 Samuel 10:4 is
one of the funniest forms of punishment I’ve ever read about. I learned that
only God can give me an undivided heart, a brand new heart. Hoping in God is
the most certain thing I can do, because He never fails.
I learned that sometimes there are hurdles in the way of a certain promise. God takes those hurdles out Himself, and He teaches me patience and trust in the process.
I learned that sometimes there are hurdles in the way of a certain promise. God takes those hurdles out Himself, and He teaches me patience and trust in the process.
I plugged myself into scripture at times, because it felt
right. Here’s 2 Chronicles 1:1.
“Helena, daughter of the LORD, established herself firmly in her journey, for the LORD her God was with her and made her exceedingly great.”
“Helena, daughter of the LORD, established herself firmly in her journey, for the LORD her God was with her and made her exceedingly great.”
The best way to start anything is by asking God for wisdom,
and my heart’s desire for wisdom pleases God. I had my first crush on a Biblical character,
Solomon. Then I found out he had a jillion wives. Typical.
I struggled the most in Thailand. I loved the place, the
food, the smoothies, the cat shirts, and the freedom to roam about. I was
inwardly struggling with my past and confronting my biggest fears of
insufficiency. I ended up going wedding dress shopping with my dear friend Becki,
and she purchased a beautiful gown. My emotions warred within me, from ultimate
happiness for my friend, to grief from my past, to fear for my future. I got
home that night and located the nearest “alone” place to cry. That night, my
friend Caitlin went for a walk with me and we sat on a curb by 7-11, as I cried
and verbally processed my fears. It was the biggest, most tangible breakthrough
I’d had in months. The powerful Word of God was leading me through this
process.
In Cambodia, I plunged into Song of Songs, Proverbs, 2
Chronicles, 1 Kings, Ecclesiastes, Obadiah, Jonah, 2 Kings, Isaiah, Amos,
Micah, and Hosea (yes, I read a lot that month).
Here are some Proverbs nuggets I picked up this time around:
Wisdom was with God before He made the world. Wisdom makes
me patient. God says He’s the only one who really knows what’s going on, and
without Him we’re all lost. God hates drama. He’s given our tongues the power
of life and death (prov 18:21). Humility comes before honor.
In 1 Kings, I learned about my heart and God’s faithfulness. Only God can turn my heart to Him, and enable me to walk in His ways. It’s not my effort, it’s my surrender. My heart must be fully committed/surrendered to the Lord.
In 1 Kings, I learned about my heart and God’s faithfulness. Only God can turn my heart to Him, and enable me to walk in His ways. It’s not my effort, it’s my surrender. My heart must be fully committed/surrendered to the Lord.
Ecclesiastes- What is worthwhile to do? Only God can give wisdom,
knowledge, and happiness. Pleasures, accomplishments, and work are not lasting
investments. Sometimes I just can’t understand everything, and that’s okay.
Enjoy every moment of life as the blessing it is.
Reading about the kings and the prophets really wrecked me.
Toss out the window everything I thought I knew about God. He speaks audibly,
He passes through, He shows off, He makes the prophets do the craziest things.
It’s different than the Sunday school lessons I’d heard. I never heard of
Isaiah going nude for 3 years. That would have made a fantastic Sunday school
lesson. I didn’t know about Elisha being “jeered by youths” for his baldness,
and then 2 bears coming out and mauling 42 youths. Again, hello, that would
have made a fun coloring page. Sometimes the Bible is as gory as the movie 300,
for example 2 Chronicles 25:12. These aren’t things we talk about much. The
Bible isn’t rated G for everyone. Sometimes it’s very disturbing and
really bloody. Some things have gone way over my head, but what I learned is
that God is real, tangible, and faithful. The forgiveness and reclaiming of the
remnant was an epic move on God’s part. These people were so unfaithful, yet
God was always faithful. We are so unfaithful, yet God is always faithful. He said
“with joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation” (Isaiah 12:3) and He
was right. He's always right.
In Cambodia, Daddy taught me that I’m innocent. It was
exactly what I needed to hear after turbulent Thailand. The day for building my
walls will come, because my Daddy delights to show mercy. It’s a humble,
exciting place to be when I can say “all that I have accomplished You have done
for me” :] giving the glory to the Lord for every victory.
I learned that sometimes when people didn’t worship the
Lord, He sent lions. I’m always on my
toes haha.
I literally cheered whenever one of the kings was faithful
to the Lord. It was rare.
The Bible is stock-full of disgusting moments, such as
Isaiah 30:22, 34:3, 34:6, 36:12, 49:26.
Oh and we can’t forget the epic angel of the Lord taking out 185,000 Assyrians in Isaiah 37:36.
Oh and we can’t forget the epic angel of the Lord taking out 185,000 Assyrians in Isaiah 37:36.
I learned more about who I am, and how beloved I am. I am
sought after and the Lord delights in me. I’ve been chosen, called, and
honored.
In Malaysia, I finished Isaiah, 2 Kings, and 2 Chronicles,
read Nahum, Zephaniah, Jeremiah (rocked my world), Habbakkuk, Lamentations, and
started Ezekiel.
My Nahum notes were interesting and short… here they are:
“God is good, slow to anger, caring to those who trust in Him, but dang… He’ll
rip you a new one, any day. He doesn’t mess around.”
The Lord has a sense of humor, and I love it so much. For
example: “I am against you,” declares the Lord Almighty. “I will lift your
skirts over your face. I will show the nations your nakedness and the kingdoms
your shame. I will pelt you with filth, I will treat you with contempt and make
you a spectacle.” Nahum 3:5-6… did the Lord just say that? He’s gonna expose
them? And pelt them with poop? Nice.
Zephaniah was short and sweet, just learned that there’s a
happy ending for the remnant. Felt nice to read that after all the punishment
reading.
Jeremiah rocked my world. My notes were crazy, full of
doodles. If you ever want to have hours of conversation with me, we can talk
about Jeremiah. It was during this read of Jeremiah that God confirmed a lot of
my calling. For now, here’s this:
But if I say, “I will not mention him or speak anymore in his name,” his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.- Jer 20:9
The Lord has given me singleness of heart and action.
Habbakkuk – praising God for the things that are yet to
come, because He is faithful and will do them.
Lamentations is well-titled and self-explanatory.
Ezekiel was epic and intimidating. I would rate Ezekiel as
#2 on my “most intimidating Bible books to tackle” right under Revelation. It
wasn’t so bad going in order! God did some really crazy stuff through Ezekiel.
He’d just be sitting there, hanging out with some old folks, and then out of
nowhere comes the hand of the Lord, and grabs him, takes him places, shows him crazy creatures, no big deal. God
taught me a huge lesson: He can do whatever He wants to. It doesn’t have to be
fair. I don’t have to understand it. God told Ezekiel that He was taking away
his wife, the object of his affection. Then God told Ezekiel not to shed any
tears. Ezekiel lost his wife, and didn’t shed any tears. I had to do a heart
check. How would I feel about God if He said “Hey Helena, I’m gonna take away
your husband and don’t cry!” Uh oh. I had to really think things through and
plug myself into that scenario. After much soul-searching, I wouldn’t be angry
with the Lord, but I don’t think I could get by without crying my face off.
Malaysia was a rough month for me. Best way to put it is to
say that my fruits of the Spirit were tested. On the flipside, God gave me a
new spiritual gift that month! Hurray for becoming even weirder haha.
Now in Rwanda, I finished Ezekiel, read Joel, Daniel, Ezra,
Haggai, Zechariah, Esther, Nehemiah, and last but not least, Malachi.
My notes were full of doodles and as I wrapped up Ezekiel (so much to doodle, so many funny goats!). God’s been pouring out blessing on top of blessing over me. I’ve fallen in love
with Africa. My love language is physical touch, so you can only imagine what a
happy camper I am, getting 40+ hugs from these sweet children every single day.
The last books… I’m still processing. God took an orphan and turned her into a queen. He took a widow and turned her into a mother. He took a cupbearer and turned him into a governor. He took a slave and turned him into a powerful official. God is the Redeemer and Restorer and Rebuilder and Replanter. He turns hopelessness into glory. I learned so much in
these 24 weeks. I highly encourage anybody who has never read the Old Testament
chronologically to do it! Take careful notes and watch how God will carefully
lead you to a better understanding of who He is and who you are in Him.
Onward to the New Testament, whoop whoop!
If you read all of this, you get a virtual high-five. Just hold out your hand and then I guess just put it back down. Proud of you.
Eskimo kisses,
Helena
