NOSTALGIA

Hello nostalgia!

Oh Mean Green!! I miss you at times like these. Getting on Facebook and seeing all my alumni friends wearing green and going to the first football game at the brand new stadium. Oh how I miss screaming in the crowd "NOOOORTH.... TEXAAAAAS!"

My brother and I at WHS homecoming in 2004

It's the same feeling I get when I read my high school band director's tweets about the band marching 3/4 of the show. The lights. The music. Homecoming.

Colorguard 2005 - UNT

Vibrant memories. All of it was a rush. Band in high school, band in college, the bus rides, the uniforms, standing at attention in the heat. Marching the fight song. :)




All those doors slammed shut and locked behind me.
No going back. That's done. Graduated. 


I don't get nearly enough free shirts anymore!
When that tiny seed of nostalgia starts to sprout into discontentment, the Lord says to my heart:

Do not say, "Why were the old days better than these?" For it is not wise to ask such questions. - Ecclesiastes 7:10

Despite the rush of memories, He reminds me to be thankful and joyful right where I am. 

This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24

Not just this, but I am fully confident that the plans the Lord has for me will be replete of joy. He's not done with me yet. He's sending me on a mission trip. He is going to bless me and use me to bless others.

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. - Ephesians 2:10

And even more, I have a promise of eternity in Christ! A promise of heaven :)

I know my Redeemer lives, and that in the end He will stand upon the earth.
And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God;
I myself will see him with my own eyes—I, and not another.
   How my heart yearns within me! 
- Job 19:25-27

I am thankful for Whitesboro High School, thankful for North Texas, but nothing compares to the eternal life I live today in the abundance of Christ's love.


Goodbye nostalgia!

Flashback to 2004 Part 2

written December 21, 2004 


if i ever come to love you, know this: i love all your flaws as well... your weaknesses may be so bad to you, so relevant, but perhaps if you take them away, you become less amazing, less human.  i will never find someone perfect.  perfection in my terms implies imperfection.  only God knows true perfection, and we all fall short.  so dont ever try to change to make someone love you, because they'll see right through you and you'll forget how to be yourself, and that knowledge, once lost, can only be found by reinventing.
i hope to someday find someone that matches a secret list i've written.  it seems so silly, so pointless, but this list should define a man that makes me happy.  i dont want anybody to ever change to fit this, because if that were to happen, it'd be like cheating.  i dont want a man that cheats on himself, cheats on his personality.  i want somebody that can be himself and that be enough.  is there anybody left that's real or are we all worms awaiting some kind of magical change to fit somebody's profile?
i promise you this: if i love a worm, i'll see a butterfly.

Flashback to 2004

This is an entry from my old blog and it made me smile. Funny how some things don't change =)

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Currently Playing Crashings By Falling Up Arafax Deep see related LiTtLe ThInGs I'm ThAnKfUl FoR  - When my day is so wonderful and I didn't expect it.  - When a friend calls.  - When I find gum or candy in the register drawer at work.  - When I see hohos at the candy machine at work.  - When my dogs think they're in trouble and they make the cutest faces.  - When someone else washes the dishes.  - When mom fills up my car with gas.  - The smell of matches after you blow them out.  - The pretty colors in the sky or neat-looking clouds.  - When my car is clean.  - When my car is dirty.  - When I have so many people in my car, we don't care if it's dirty or clean b/c we're having so much  fun.  - How water tastes so perfect after you run 4 miles in the heat.  - When an old friend talks to me.  - When I think life couldn't get any worse, and it doesn't  - When I sit and daydream about heaven.  - When my legs and hands hurt so much from playing on the swings in the playground with my high school friends.  - When it feels so good to fall asleep in that one boring English lecture, and I do, for an hour, and I dont get caught.  - When I think I'll never stop crying and then a friend cheers me up by talking in a girlish voice, or telling a fart joke.  - When you can say "Chubby Bunny" with 11 large marshmallows in your mouth, setting a new record.  - When you think you clicked the wrong link but you didn't, and it goes to the right page.  - When you mispronounce the name of your favorite chips and make a friend forever b/c it was just that funny.  - When you hang out with someone you've known forever but never really hung out with in person... and you have problems saying bye b/c they're so fun to be around.  - Abbreviations.  - Seeing your picture in a random page of the yearbook and yellin "hey there's me!"  - When I get so bored I plan my wedding in my head.  - When you think you lost something you can't live without, yet you realize you're 10 times stronger now that you're without it.  - When you realize you're doing the right thing in God's eyes, and that makes you feel soooooooo good.  - When I stand up and walk all the way to the front of the bus to stand up for my faith, going against my peers, but I didn't lose any friends.  - When you're sitting there praying and you can swear that Jesus is standing right next to you and you're scared to open your eyes b/c you'd see Him and He's too wonderful, and tears just pour out and suddenly everything's okay.  - When I feel the sunshine on my face and I think I'm getting sunburned but I dont.  - When I find clean socks without having to dig for them.  - When the dogs go outside instead of inside.  - Mitsy.  - My giant spongebob pillow.  - Having someone so very special smile at you... and you know right then and there that you'll never forget that moment.  - Knowing God showers you with little things and He just wants to make you happy and love you and have you with Him forever, in heaven. Reading this always cheers me up. Maybe b/c it's a list of good things... hmm nice huh? Yall should try writing one... it's really fun. " For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and spirit, of joints and marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart." Hebrews 4:12 ~Love~Peace~'n'~Music~