Tentative Christmas Wish List

Christmas is just around the corner...well it's around the corner, and then you have to walk about a mile, to the left... but who cares about specifics, right? Christmas is coming.

I thought it'd be fun to write my tentative wish list!

Before I get started, I want to emphasize that 1) my love language is physical touch, not gifts, so I'd much rather have a hug and a visit than stuff. 2) I can fit all my belongings in my car (and I'm glad) so don't judge me!

Ahem.

1) E-reader, preferably a Nook (and my mom is giving me hers that she never uses, so CHECK!)
2) A straightener to tame the mane (mine died in April, sad sad day!).
3) A gun. It's just weird not to own something I can shoot with... I sold my shotgun before the trip.
4) Mascara.
5) A new case for my phone, because the one I have now is torn to shreds because I fiddle with it too much.
6) Car insurance ahahaha.
7) Unlimited Starbucks would be nice... but heaven will have fountains of salted caramel frappuccino.
8) A job would be awesome. A fax from Jesus with my 2-year plan would be even more awesome!
9) Acceptance letter from grad school would be supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
10) An external hard drive.
11) A cat? No... I can't have a cat. But pray that I can have a cat soon.

Okay that's all I have :) Making this list was probably more for my benefit, but I guess it's alright once in a while to blog like this, eh? Gives you a glimpse into my brain.

Thanks for stopping by and you stay classy! 

God is CHATTY in the mornings!

One thing I learned on this trip is how to hear God.

Yeah, it sounds weird, but wouldn’t it be even weirder if a God who claims to be alive never spoke?

It’s not like the cat has His tongue.

We just don’t listen very well. God is always telling us to be still and to listen, and that when we call on Him, He reveals things to us. It says in the Bible that the Holy Spirit is here to teach us new things, things that Jesus didn’t teach us because we couldn’t bear it at the time. If this is surprising to you, take a hint to read more about the Holy Spirit in the Bible!!! He’s God, just as much God as the Father and the Son! 

I wish I had read more about the Holy Spirit before this trip, but He’s kind of taboo, because He’s a little bit weeeeeird! Weird in a holy holy holy way, but weird nonetheless.

I was sitting on the roof at 5:55 am, waiting on the sunrise in India. I didn’t set an alarm at all, but simply prayed that God would wake me up in time to see the sun come up. Faithfully, He answered that prayer. I went up the 3 flights of stairs to the very top, and sat down on a chair. The air felt humid yet cool, and the sky was already lit up. No sun in sight. It wasn’t until 6:18 that I saw the actual sun… the haze here is pretty bad. All this time I was singing and praying, asking the Lord to speak to me. And speak He did.

I asked Him about California, and asked for Him to shed some light on that for me.

He said that He wants me in California because it is a dark place. He is sending soldiers there. He has a lot of movement going on, lots of miracles, lots of stirring of the Holy Spirit there, but He wants more. He wants more people to be saved from California. He told me it is valuable to Him, and He compared it to Nineveh’s value in the book of Jonah. He told me that there are many women there that need the hope of the gospel because they have a false gospel and they desperately need the truth. He stressed their money and their influence. He wants healings and adoptions to take place in California, and for there to be seeds planted for adoption.

The fun part is that I still don’t have my acceptance to seminary. Waiting is rough.

I asked Him about going to Guatemala sometime from January til August, before classes would potentially start.

He said that wherever I am, I am His daughter, and I shine. He said that I have a choice, and that I have the freedom to make that choice. He gave me peace about it either way, and He gave me two dates: February 1^st and May 1^st. I don’t know what those mean yet, but I think those are both dates when I will go to Guatemala. Big choice to make here, and I’ll be praying more about it! 

I asked Him about my heart department, of course, and He’s given me a lot of peace. I felt Him smiling at me and just nodding His head and telling me to trust Him. It was kind of funny. I laughed about that. I do trust Him. He has really really good plans :] 

Then He told me things I didn’t even ask to hear, but He is a good Father and He knew that I needed to be reminded.

He told me that He has wired me for women’s ministry. He said that women trust me and that I am a good listener. He said He trusts me! He said that I will teach and help people to understand how to deal with wounds. He said my ministry is healing and community. He wants me to enable ‘broken vessels’ to serve, especially serve in orphan ministry. He said many children will be adopted. He said He will guide me and to stay filled with the Holy Spirit. He reminded me that I am free, and that I obey because I trust Him. He said He is so proud of me, and that He loves me so much.

In conclusion, God is quite chatty in the morning.

He is perfect. His words are perfect. Don’t be afraid to listen, and don’t be surprised when you hear. 

Please keep all these things in your prayers, and that the Lord’s perfect will is accomplished in me. Pray for me against anxiety, fear, worry, doubt, and impatience. Pray for peace, joy, confidence, courage, and most of all, love.